Ever have a strong yearning, desire or a sense that at some point in your life a particular person or place will play a dramatic role in your life? I can’t explain it and honestly I don’t see how it could ever happen, but right now for me that place is New York City (Manhattan). I just have this very strong feeling that at some point it will play a pivotal role with me and my family. I don’t know how and I don’t know when. It just “feels” like it is going to happen. And you know what? It’s not a feeling that brings across any kind of apprehension at all. It’s almost like I just know that’s where I am going to go. This also seems to be coinciding with my desire to rid everything in my life that is not necessary and to get my body back in shape. That being said, I don’t see me uprooting my family anytime soon. They are my world. I can assure you I won’t do anything without their full blessing and until they all have been given the same desire. Nor do I see the financial means to tackle such a journey. In fact, in my eyes, that in itself is almost an insurmountable obstacle. I guess it’s just one of those things you just put in God’s hands and watch what happens.

This all started a couple of years ago, when I got the opportunity to go to New York City twice in one year. If it weren’t for the family I am so blessed to have, I would not have wanted to come back to Mississippi. I can’t explain it, but I felt a peace. A peace in the midst of millions sounds crazy, but it was like I was at home. If you know me at all, then you would probably realize how crazy that sounds. I hate traffic, I despise places like Wal-Mart because of the crowds and the unruly people and I don’t like small cramped hotel rooms. And so you ask, then why do you want to live in New York City where people are everywhere, traffic is horrendous and 400 square foot apartments cost many times more than the spacious home I live in now? I can’t really tell you. It is just different and I think I have something to accomplish there. Right now, I just don’t know what it is or when.

So, if you know me, say a little prayer. I don’t know where this yearning is coming from, exactly what it is all about or if anything will ever come out of it. I just hope I keep an open heart and mind, so that I will be ready when I need to be. That’s a big step for a boy raised in Mississippi, who has dreamed of far away lands, but has never ventured out of the city he has lived in all is life, other than for brief visits.

Blessings,
Chuck